I'm Just Like the Rest of Us

I know from your point of view maybe it's been only a few minutes, but from mine, my mind has been elsewhere. Where may you ask? Well, a few possible answers could be at the school, tired from teaching lessons, another could maybe be busy playing volleyball, I could also respond with comments like spending time with friends and my brother. But another very realistic and maybe more true responses would be with my head buried in my phone, wasting time watching pointless short form videos that I would struggle to right now even be able to describe one of the hundreds I've probably seen in the last few weeks or maybe I could simply say mindlessly watching YouTube OR maybe even I could go as far as say that I am reading a book on oppression but something about the words on the page are struggling to create pictures in my mind. And pictures in my mind are the way I understand. So, the book has become a lot more of a great moment to anxiously daydream as I ghost read my way through the second half of it.

The moral of the story is that I have been doing a lot of things other than thinking and sitting and not looking at my phone. And The latter of the excuses as to how I have been spending my free time are more accurate to this conversation I am having with myself, and will probably always be with myself, because that free time is the time I want to be spending in more mentally constructive ways like here, creating this blog, working on a new project, exploring new ideas, and encouraging myself to embrace this side of my mind. So that is why I am here, because finally enough time passed that I am literally BORED of being bored and rotting away and I have made my way full circle around again to writing here.

To tie into this topic at hand, something humorous to add to my last blog post about my observations on the commute to work and mysterious commuter girl is that if I remember correctly, that same day I behaved in a similar manner as the girl had. It was a bit more subtle (I'd like to believe) and a bit less annoyed but regardless it is funny how quickly we can behave in a manner so recently we have just denounced. And if you're wondering what the humor is in all of it, it is the irony of it all. And I guess that's just what makes a truly sincere person who they are.

Because sincere is the opposite of hypocrite and I don't believe I am a hypocrite, but I also have never heard anyone call me sincere. Nice is a common one that I used to despise for my own hate and inability of self-forgiveness. Easy-going I get less of but who really calls anyone easy-going nowadays. Goofy I heard recently and even funny....that one took me by surprise, but I really liked that adjective being used for me. If I could add a few that I would like people to use in the future I think I would like independent, leader and honest. Wow it would be nice to get to the point where honesty is an adjective used to describe me but I have still got a long way to go. I am no longer dishonest but tampoco tan honesto que se me lo llama.

So to wrap up this conjumbled mess of a run-on-thought, I am just like the rest of us. I observe, I opinion, and then I often behave in those similar human-like ways. All I got to keep reminding myself is to check myself, forgive myself, and learn from my experiences. I need to set goals, step out of comfort zones and be kind to others. I need to have expectations, limits and keep an open mind. I need to be balanced. I've got a lot to do. But blessed there's so much of it.